Do you ever feel like you are being pulled in too many directions at once? That is me. Everyday.
And I do it to my kids, too. I have good intentions. I want them to learn so many good and beautiful things. And I expect them to do it with vigor and enthusiasm. But they don’t. It is stressing us all out. I want them to have the best, well-rounded education possible. I want them to study poetry, Shakespeare, cursive writing, history, logic, science, Latin, English grammar, geography, memory work, hymns, scripture, writing, math, great literature, and the list goes on. It’s unreasonable. And I end every day like we failed because we didn’t get as much accomplished as I wanted.
On top of school, I want my house to be clean, dishes and laundry to be done. I want a full farm of animals which are well cared for and a large garden. I also work part-time outside the home and love my job. I wish I could work more. I also tutor at a local co-op and am on the planning committee for a new one for next year. I lead our Wednesday night program at our church for the kids and plan outreach programs. I want to do more. I want to be a good mom, wife, and friend.
But I cannot. I cannot do it all. Why do we feel like we need to be wonder-woman? Why do we feel like we need to accomplish everything that would not even be possible to do if I doubled the number of hours in my day?
Prioritize. I need to learn to prioritize. What is MOST important to get done in my day TODAY? What is the most important thing my children are learning TODAY? Yes, I need to have a plan. I need to have balance. But, today my kids learned that mama is crazy. Today my kids learned I have a breaking point. Today, my kids learned that if they stay busy, and away from mom, their lives will be easier. Is that what I really want them learning?????
Rest. I need to learn to rest. Not laying in bed, resting. But resting in the fact that GODS GOT THIS. I don’t. I cannot do enough. I cannot do it all. I need to RELY on the One who made me. Who made the sun, moon, and stars. I am responsible to be obedient to Him. He is responsible for the outcome. STOP. RUNNING. CRAZY! I am not doing any good trying to ‘fit it all in’. Stop. Rest. Breathe. Pray. And then keep going. One step at a time. One thing at a time. Just focus on the most important thing for that moment.